maybe he was right,
Bukowski.
perhaps I’m just wasting
time, trying
to do the right thing.
maybe that 9-to-5 job
and a house on the hill
is just vanity.
who needs health food
and therapy?
you might be better off
smoking,
drinking,
gambling,
and living out
the lustful dreams of youth
in your golden years.
we only get one life
after all.
and all the prayer
in the world
will not provide
the answers you seek.